You know, I hate to even capitalize enemy up there in the title, but proper English is something we writers just gotta have. I am hoping this post helps another….
I am 99% sure I have been getting attacked by the enemy. (There, now he doesn’t get his capital letter!) I wanted to write a poem to tell him and his goons off, but the pain I’ve been dealing with has taken my creativity away for today. Can I simply talk you? Can you relate?
While the world around me is covid crazy with this new strand, I’ve been dealing with odd, unusual, for me, health junk.
It first started with my gallbladder giving me pressure and then pain in late September. Then I had a colonoscopy to check on the ibs I’ve had all my life. I waited on the gall bladder surgery for a month. I was told it’s a piece of cake. After.4 days you should be good.
I came out of the surgery extremely nauseous and out of it feeling. It took many hours to come around enough to stand and go home. After those 4 days, I continued to have high levels of post operative pain. If I could just lay flat for a couple weeks and not move is what I thought to myself most days. It took 3 weeks to get back to where I didn’t have to take Advil to get through a day. So much for a piece of cake.
There would then be something here or there. A headache, a bad menstrual cycle complete with all the perimenopause symptoms you could think of. Two weeks ago one Thurs morning I woke and walked to the kitchen. I fell into the wall. I was spinning so wildly that I somewhat scaled the wall feeling my way back to my bed. From there, I could not lift my head off the pillow or roll over without a severe feeling of spinning to the point of becoming nauseous.
The last two days I’ve spent in intense pain in neck. I get a neck and shoulder cramp once a year or so, but never to the point of walking the living room crying. Here I am tonight laying on a heating pad after spending a day with a Tens unit attached to my neck. (Those sure do alleviate the pain while on but do not rid you of the pain)
I’ve been mad today. Discouraged today. Fed up today. I know some of it is consequences of choices I’ve made. I shouldn’t have sat so long the other night hunched over working on a crochet project. And had I not ate like I did all those years, my gallbladder wouldn’t have needed removed. The vertigo was a result of being out on my side during that surgery…so the doctor said that day. But the intensity of each even is where I know I’m being attacked.
My thought today was this….”So this is how the spirit of infirmity really works. It paralyzes you with physical pain, mental worry over that pain, and spiritually drains you if you’re not staying prayed up”
That is your word of encouragement. That paragraph above. Sometimes half the battle is just knowing what you’re fighting, I guess.
I’m not going to give up on loving God, chasing God wholeheartedly, and telling others what He’s done for me. He always gets a capital letter no matter where he is in my writing! He sees me, He knows me, and He loves me. He has not left me and He knows what I’m capable of handling. So tomorrow is hope that this pain in the neck is gone and I can continue to be about my Father’s business.
Praying for you: May God grant you peace of mind and heart. May He heal you as He sees fit and when and encourage you until then.
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Thanks Judy!
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Amy, first, I pray complete healing over you in Jesus name with no lasting effects. Gallbladder surgery is rough, speak from experience. I highly recommend a post operative sonogram to make sure all is well after surgery. Vertigo, I ended up on floor. God bless us both. You must be a fighter. That means your a warrior! The word of God is a two edge sword anililating all the darts of the enemy, God is fighting for you! Blessings.
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Thank you so much! Tonight I am feeling no pain to minimal spasms at times. Thank you for reading my previous writings.
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Hang I there, Amy!! So true all that you said!! Love ya dearly!! ❤️🙏🏻🙌
One day no more physical/flesh stuff to deal with!! Glory to God through Jesus!!!
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Amen! Thanks
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Infuriating when you’re under such an attack isn’t it? Praying you feel better soon & this attack ends now! ❤
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Yes in Jesus Name! Thanks, Cynthia
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Praying for you! 🙏🤗❤️
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Thank you so much.
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Oh my Amy, I’m so sorry to hear of your physical ails, and of your emotional struggles.
How long did your vertigo last? 😟
I get your connection to spiritual warfare and attacks from the enemy. I think we are under attack more than we realize – maybe all the time. God’s grace provides an umbrella of protection for us, but I know He allows attacks sometimes for our benefit and His glory.
What a light you are, giving God His glory in your perspective and spirit; thank you for sharing in your post.
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Thank you for commenting. The vertigo lasted a full day. Apparently there are small stones in our ears for balance. If your head is kept in one position for too long those stones can move out of place causing the vertigo. Odd stuff….and who knew? Lol. I appreciate you Kathy!
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😮 I never knew that!
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Creepy huh? Wonder if those stones help us land on our feet like cats!
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😂
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Amy, you’re right. When you recognize where it’s coming from, there’s a changing point. The pain doesn’t go away immediately, but you’re ready to “fight the good fight,” and victory is in sight.
Praying the Lord will keep you strong and bring you relief and rest soon.
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Thank you so much! I pray you are well
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Dang, that is a lot to deal with Amy😥
But your look at things is spot on. Don’t let this “attack” get you in that doubting mode.
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Confession: I did have a gnarly day of “ugh why me?” But much better today. I sure do like seeing your posts coming through more frequently!
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I plan on continuing with the Bible Studies for a bit longer.
Oh that why me is a bummer. Had that just last week
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Hang in there Bro! Keep on keeping in and stay faithful to God
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Oh goodness, Amy! You have been really going through it. I totally get what you are conveying in this post. It’s definitely spiritual warfare, more amped up than ever before. he (the enemy) has but a short time, indeed! Girl I certainly feel for you and share in those painful ailments. It can really drag you down mentally and spiritually, as well. It doesn’t matter who you are. So here’s wishing (and praying) this year is better for you and your family! I appreciate you so much and love you, my friend! 💜🙏🏼
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I love you too!! I loved that you wrote on every one of those oranges! What a wonderful way to inspire others!
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Awe thanks my beautiful friend! I pray the church rises up this year and blesses everyone they come in contact with. Continue to shine His Light! 💜
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Father, I pray for my sister, for healing, peace, and strength. Her whole heart, resting within Your gentle embrace. Father, thank you that she knows, what she’s fight; a small enemy! In You, her Big God, she’s a conqueror, an overcomer. In Jesus’ name, Amen!
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Hi! My name is Miranda. I have read a couple of your blog posts and enjoyed what I’ve read so far. I’m an apostolic in California and your posts have already been encouraging to me. Sorry to hear of the pain you’re feeling and what you’re going through. I hope it gets better in Jesus Name 🙏🏼
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Thanks Miranda. I am well now! Do you have a blog? Because it doesn’t send me to one and I’d love to your read your stuff as well if you write!
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