Amy’s World

To stress or not to stress…that my dear is the question.

To my poor mother in law who has heard all of this already, I’m sorry you now have to read it too๐Ÿ˜€

I’ve learned something significant about stress over the last month; particularly the last 2 weeks that I’d like to share with you that may help one of you.

As soon as school started, my world around me opened up at the same time. My responsibilities that had been on hold due to the virus, were now all on the table. My schedule went from slow to busy in zero to sixty. I also lost two friends in that amount of time which I’ve shared with you all. Your comments to my poems and thoughts were so kind and helpful. Truly, thank you. Sad to think I ever wanted to walk away from the blogosphere! Glad y’all didn’t kick me out either!

About a month go I would get to the end of the day and be somewhat confused with my speech. I’d look at something, point at it, and simply have no word for it. I’d stumble through a sentence trying to bring to my lips what my mind was telling me. My mind was going faster than my mouth could handle. Then I’d tell myself, Amy, you sat for so many months waiting for life to get going again. You’re here, appreciate it, and keep going.

Honestly, I wonder how many of us deceive ourselves in this manner. Like it’s ok to be overwhelmed because you wanted this, now you’ve got it.

Or I wonder how many of us get our plates so full, yet feel as if they’re still half empty because we aren’t achieving the exact dreams we had planned. So we keep piling and piling trying to fulfill something that may never be in God’s will for us anyhow. That rant right there will be better explained at another date.

The icing on the cake of stress came 2 weeks ago today. I got in my car and started out for the next store but I somehow lost some time. I didnt close my eyes. I didn’t go off the road, I simply blanked out and don’t remember most of the street I was going down. But when I came to, I did not know where I was. It was all foreign to me. This is a road I travel frequently. I said out loud, “where am I?” And within moments I got with it and made my way to the store parking lot. I knew, just knew it was from stress. But I allowed fear and my overactive imagination to tell me other things. What if it’s dementia/alzheimers? Runs in my family. Oh my goodness what if it was a stroke?

Good old fashioned stress. My mind just completely had enough.

I slowed down from that next day on. The days go by so slowly these past two weeks and have been so helpful. I could slowly feel the tension leave my body over a few days time.

I guess what I want to pass on to you is that stress relief is possible if your mindful about it. Because stress can have some pretty hard effects on you.

I also want to leave with you that if you’re like me, you want to be everything to everyone. But at the end of the day you lose yourself in the daunting, exhausting task of trying to please others. I’ve done this for so many years. Number one, it’s not possible. Number two, that desire comes from a place inside that is lacking something that needs to be resolved.

Pleasing God should be enough for each of us.

This guy came as a fossil intact that you mold clay around. Oh wait, Leah said it’s a girl
But now she has wings! Lol
New Year’s day here in Indiana. Ice storm that cancelled our plans. Another day to just slow down
Power lines full of ice.
Rained ice all day followed by pretty snow. 2021 here we come!

19 Replies to “Amy’s World”

  1. Oh Amy….Iโ€™m praying for you! Stress can surely mess with our mental, physical and even, our spiritual health. Please take care of yourself. Donโ€™t forget to take time out for self-care. I am trying to learn that one myself, advice from another of our dear friends here.
    Loved the pics. Keep us updated please! ๐Ÿ’œ you!

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  2. Amy, I’m so glad your incident in the car didn’t turn out much worse and that you’re safe. I fully agree that this was probably caused by stress. It’s a dissociative thing when the mind shuts down to prevent further pressure – definitely a warning sign to get more relaxation. I believe many of us are suffering from this just now as so much has been going on over the past year to cause our minds to work overtime.
    I’m glad you wrote about this because, the way I’ve been feeling and behaving recently, I was beginning to think I was a total nutjob! We’re all in this together and by God’s love, grace and strength, we will get through it. xx
    Love the photos!

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  3. A wise friend once told me, โ€œIf you donโ€™t take care of yourself, you can care for others.โ€ Stress had emptied my tank and I had nothing left to give. It has been hard, but I have learned the art of self care. Praying you will find wisdom and peace in our Lord Jesus.

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  4. Oh, my Amy! I’ve never considered how stress can take such a physical toll on the mind. It makes sense, they way it played out in you.
    You’re pretty amazing. God has blessed you with a teachable spirit (I pray for this often), and also with a pretty great mother-in-law I think. ๐Ÿ˜‰
    Blessed new year, full of wisdom, peace, and joy.

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