I stood at the sink fuming inside. More angry than I should’ve been. But then, that’s me, Miss Short Fuse. We all have those days when we are not sure if we’ve heard from the Lord or if it was our own thinking. This moment was not one of those, as I knew the conversation going on in my heart had to be the Lord speaking to me. And I was reluctant to hear it.
The Lord: “You must call them back and apologize for your actions.”
Stubborn ole me: “She was the one being rude, Lord.”
Voice of Reasoning: “You were rude as well. Also, what they are asking is what you should’ve taken care of before this.”
Cowardly me: “Yes, but I can’t call back. I’m too embarrassed.”
I had been calling this clinic to get information on my adult daughter’s medication prescribed to her. There’s been some back and forth going on with insurance approval for 6 weeks. Sometimes when I call they tell me what I need to know but not today. The nurse asked if I had guardianship. No, but I have medical power of attorney. But they don’t know that as I’ve never given them the paperwork. My poor excuse on the matter is that they usually give me the info without the paperwork. But not today. Not this nurse. She was following protocol. I got irritated with her and she got irritated with me back! And then I hung up!
Hence, the prodding from Lord. So I did it! I called back. And I apologized. I didn’t feel better in the sense that I was proud of myself. Because I was ashamed of my behavior. I didn’t feel better to take the load of guilt off either. I only felt better because I did what the Lord told me to do.
Is the Lord asking you to do something, like having to apologize to someone? Or is He asking you to admit you’ve been wrong. Maybe He’s asking you to clean up a mess you made on the job or in your family. Does it hurt in the pit of your stomach when you hear those thoughts from your heart like…”You need to fix this” or “you’re going to have to apologize to them for that” if you hear this Voice of reason…know it’s your Heavenly Father admonishing you for your own good.
Lord, help me to hear your Voice of reason each day of my life. Let me be sensitive to your prodding and fatherly admonishing so that my light that You’ve given me may shine bright…even over the phone.