The Call

I wish you could call me on the phone, knock on my door, stop me in the hall.

Grab me by the shoulders, give a swift shake, eye to eye we’d stand as your tell me about your call.

I’d watch your eyes and your smile, as you reveal just what it is you want me to do. Where to go.

Plane tickets, money, and a list of instructions as you fill me in on everything I need to know.

Ever felt a tugging, a calling to go deeper with your work for God? I have for a while now, but I just finally got the nerve up last week to take, what I think is, the first step.

I was just so self assured when I took that step. I really put myself out on the line and then I waited.

The adversary saw this and he took his grand entrance into the whole thing and started stirring up my flesh. He began to get me riled up on things I didn’t need to be dealing with during this time of waiting. I should’ve been in more contemplative prayer and fasting while waiting. But no, instead I’m being flung about like a rag doll. In the very back of my mind there was a thought…this is the devil messing with you. But there were so many other emotions and feelings taking front seat, that I dismissed what was my signal to a way of escape.

I didn’t handle well the fleshly things coming my way. I should’ve walked away from such an argument, such a scene. And when it was done, each of us in our usual corners, licking our wounds…here comes the words in my mind. Words that sound like your own, words in your own head…so surely they are yours, right? Wrong.

“Who did you think you were trying to step into something you know nothing about?” Ever heard that?

Or “You’re just trying to get attention and show off, you’re not sincere for God.”

How about this…”Wait, how do think you can be useful for the kingdom of God, when you can’t even walk away from an arguement?”

And as my mind is being bombarded from hell, and the thoughts are tearing me down, there’s a soft whisper in my heart. “You’re being called. All I need from you is for you to be willing to answer my call.”

Isn’t it funny how Satan screams at us; and God needs to only whisper?

On the tail end of this…I was given a scripture by someone on the sidelines of this, watching and praying.

Luke 22:31-32

And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat:

32 But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren

God bless.

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Amy Blount

I'm a stay at home wife and mother of 3. My oldest is 23 who lives at home because she is a delight and is autistic. My other 2 are in elementary school. They are all 3 girls. Raising an autistic daughter isn't the same as raising ones without. So it's like starting anew with some things. I will partly write about this. I have overcome many addictions with the only Savior Jesus for 8yrs. I will also write partly on addiction and how I see it and overcame it. I believe you will find my musings encouraging, helpful and sometimes a bit funny since I tend to be someone who holds nothing back. The purpose of my blog at first was to use it as an outlet, a way to get things out of mind and onto paper. But it has turned into a place I can go to encourage others with a short story, poem or to simply talk and try to relate. I just started blogging a month ago (April 2018) I wish I would've done it sooner! I promise to never try to sell you anything but Jesus' love. Be patient as this site may take on a few changes as I try to find my place in it and where I want it to go. I have many ideas swirling...stick around! Thanks for reading.

22 thoughts on “The Call”

  1. Oh, ~gusty sigh~ sometimes it’s so hard to discern God’s leading, and sometimes it’s so PLAIN! We talked about this yesterday after church, in our group: How do you know what God is telling you? We all decided that, first, you have to know God (confess Him as Savior, read His Word, fellowship with other Christians). Also, Jesus said that His sheep know His voice. When you hear God, or feel that nudging, you just KNOW it’s Him.
    Later that afternoon, there were a bunch of little things. How was I to respond? What was God telling me? WAS He telling me anything??
    Sometimes the flesh or satan is too loud, as you say, to hear the still small voice of God. I’m so grateful that I serve a loving, forgiving, powerful God.

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    1. So true what you say. I also find that after listening to Gospel music things become a bit clearer. Also the more time I spend with Him the clearer He becomes and the harder it is for the enemy to get through. I think we will have this battle right till the end, but as time passes we become more and more sure of who He really is.

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  2. Wow. So shameful how the devil tries this every time but glory to God, we have won the victory.
    I also go through this sometimes but God is ever faithful and keeps reassuring me of His love, all you have to do is listen to His voice and get back on your feet♥️ I’m going to share this now with someone I know who recently went through this phase, this is so good! Thanks for sharing✨

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  3. I had such a similar experience this past week! I took a huge step of faith on Sunday and everything that could go wrong did. 4 machines went down at work making it a very stressful week with so much tension among the employees, disagreements with my husband, feeling sick and discouraged, only to almost laugh with hysteria when my youngest came down with fever. Is there anything else that could happen since I’m barely keeping my head above the water and I can’t swim, I thought through my tears. I should of been praying and fasting also feeling that the enemy was attacking. I wanted comfort but instead of running to God, I ran for shelter where I shouldn’t have only to feel worse than I had. I wept bitterly as Peter did after denying God. I still feel shooked but sometimes it’s when I am broken 💔, that God can seep through the cracks and get into my stubborn heart. It’s easier for me to stay down feeling unworthy but this is what faith is. If I believe God forgives I must act accordingly and forgive myself. Who am I to belittle His price on Calvary by dismissing the grace and mercy he extends to me. I am fighter and won’t let Satan win by staying down. So he knocked me down but here comes the comeback! I am stronger now because while I fell face down I cried to the Lord, my deliver, my Savior and he fights for me and this battle is already won! Don’t give up or let failure stand in the way of what God has in store for you! I’ll be praying for you and please pray for me! We received power when the Holy Spirit came upon us!
    Ephesians 6:10-19
    10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

    18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

    We got this! ‘If God is for us, who can be against us?’

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