Arms folded, feet planted tight. Chin set, eyebrows creased.
Mind set, plans made, nothing in the way. Everything is a go.
Bottom falls out suddenly, unexpectedly. Nothing can be done. Must let go.
Stubbornly think of nothing but what was wanted, what was planned. Can’t let go.
Caged, trapped in disappointment, holding onto what was but now not is. Getting unstable, no choice but to let go.
Defeated and relieved at the same time. Have you ever felt this way? Have you ever planned and thought something through that would inevitably turn into something opposite of what you were wanting? Maybe a situation in your marriage or maybe a situation with your children. Or plans for college or your ministry going in a different direction than you ever imagined.
I had to explain disappointment to my 8yr old daughter today. She was sure upset because she had a plan in place to buy a certain doll she wanted with her allowance. I could see her crossing her fingers walking down the aisle in the hopes they would have what she had her heart set on. They didn’t. And she did ok until the next store, and the one after that, were out of them as well.
Do we get in God’s way when we are meticulously planning every move of our lives? Do we set ourselves up for disappointment because we aren’t simply trusting in Him with our plans? I’m truly guilty of this. Coming from years of trauma, I’ve become a planner; a way of protecting myself from disappointment. Or so I think. Today, I’m reminded of 2 scriptures and a funny saying that make me feel better. Hope they do the same for you.