What’s In Your suitcase?

1524862119953-264238991.jpgDo you hold onto something? A past hurt from someone. Remarks made about you. Did someone hurt you? Do you have deep wounds that won’t heal? Some of us at times don’t even realize how much pain we drag around with us. I heard it explained like this before. Each past pain, regret, harm, mistake and sin you keep locked up inside of you is like a suitcase full of chickenheads. Each one of those pains are a chicken head and you stuff it away in a suitcase. You carry this suitcase with your wherever you go. But what happens to dead things left unburied? They rot. They smell. They fester.


So many times we think that we deserve to hold onto a certain sin or regret because after all, we’re the one that did it. We deserve the punishment of replaying it over and over in our minds. It’s our punishment. But if we serve a forgiving, loving God; why would He require it of us to hold onto these things? He doesn’t. What He did on the cross has covered and taken care of what we are holding onto. The only ones remembering it is us. God has forgotten it. Wiped it clean off the slate. So why keep dragging the suit case full of death and rotteness?

If we open that suitcase we will find that each chicken head are the things we won’t forgive ourselves for. God is not a punishing  us. There is no pennance in a relationship with God. But we humans like to punish ourselves and even others at times.

I’ve recently asked God to reveal the things I can’t forgive myself for. And He did just that! It was over a course of a 2 week period, that each day something I did or was done to me, (by no fault of mine) would “pop” into my thoughts. I was instructed to stop and speak outloud these words…By Your grace and only by Your mercy and by Your blood do I forgive myself for….and I would fill in the blank. I release it to you in Jesus Name.

I can tell you that this does work. I am free of so much shame and you can be too! Be blessed!



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Amy Blount

I'm a stay at home wife and mother of 3. My oldest is 23 who lives at home because she is a delight and is autistic. My other 2 are in elementary school. They are all 3 girls. Raising an autistic daughter isn't the same as raising ones without. So it's like starting anew with some things. I will partly write about this. I have overcome many addictions with the only Savior Jesus for 8yrs. I will also write partly on addiction and how I see it and overcame it. I believe you will find my musings encouraging, helpful and sometimes a bit funny since I tend to be someone who holds nothing back. The purpose of my blog at first was to use it as an outlet, a way to get things out of mind and onto paper. But it has turned into a place I can go to encourage others with a short story, poem or to simply talk and try to relate. I just started blogging a month ago (April 2018) I wish I would've done it sooner! I promise to never try to sell you anything but Jesus' love. Be patient as this site may take on a few changes as I try to find my place in it and where I want it to go. I have many ideas swirling...stick around! Thanks for reading.

6 thoughts on “What’s In Your suitcase?”

  1. I’m going to try this, because I’ve realized lately I still carry around a lot a shame. Most of the time it’s not a conscious thing, though. I’m just used to being a certain way, but it’s dawning on me that it’s a dampened down version of the real me, if that makes sense…

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  2. Chicken heads!! I love that! It is such a perfect image for me to apply when I feel the shame creeping in again. Because for me too, it still does.

    It also did really help me when someone told me that Jesus not only died on the cross for my sins, but also my shame. I had either never heard that before, or been deaf to what that really meant. The whole package. Not just my sinful behaviour, but all the shame that has followed me because of it. Freeing indeed!

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